The Flake has Returned

OH MY HECK! I am such a flake. I was looking at my blog today and realized I have not blogged since FEB. I am soooo sorry. so i guess it is catch you up time. since February I Officially made my job at Mrs Fields Permanent. (that was a huge relief) I had a birthday that was great and not so great. The idea of me getting older was horrifying but as usual my husband made me queen of the day and did everything he could to make it special. I survived mothers day by thinking of others. ( I thought about how it would be difficult for my dads family to have there first mothers day without there mother) I made up husbands day! Which my husband totally loved. We spent great holidays together Easter, Memorial Day, the 4th and the 24th of July. And I learned the most important lesson of my life 2 weeks ago. You want to know what it is? okay I will tell you! ITS NOT ABOUT ME!!! I know shocking right? LOL but it is true I was talking with my husband and we were talking about not being able to have a baby and I said something about how after 5 years I still must not be very faithful if we still have not been able to conceive. Eric patiently and lovingly expressed how faithful I WAS and that it took A lot of faith to go thru what we did and come out on the other side of it together. stronger and happier! So I thought Ya that's True! So what lesson am I missing? And then it hit me like a bolt of lightning! YOUR BEING SELFISH!!! Having a baby isn't supposed to be about us! It is supposed to be about the baby! And for the past 5 years all we have been thinking about is us why we cant have a baby how much we want to have a baby how a baby would enrich our lives! GEESH in retrospect No wonder it hasn't worked out for us because we are making it all about us! Sigh.... I have spent 5 and a half years wasting time and blessings thinking about me. Well those days are over now. Its about the baby and the baby only and we will get ready for the baby and wait and enjoy our time together until that baby is ready to come to us. I am determined to enjoy my life. And when that sweet baby graces us with its presence we will welcome it with open arms and we will know that its right because we are not praying for us anymore we are just praying for the baby!

Utah author MarDeane "Polly" Carver Jordan dies in Bountiful

By Marc Haddock

Deseret News

Published: Wednesday, Feb. 10, 2010 7:01 p.m. MST

BOUNTIFUL — MarDeane "Polly" Carver Jordan traveled the world with her husband, a U.S. military officer and diplomat, often interacting with heads of state, but she never lost touch with her small-town roots.

"I'm sure that my mother has been on six contents, personally knew four U.S. presidents and visited well over 100 countries, usually with my father on a mission for the State Department," David Jordan said. "She was totally unaffected by any of that. She was just as comfortable in Pocatello, Idaho, as she was in Beijing, China."

The devoted wife and mother served two missions for her church in Hong Kong and Hawaii and was the author of "Brigham Young: Covered Wagon Boy," a children's biography written for the Childhood of Famous Americans series.

Polly Jordan died Tuesday, Feb. 9, in Bountiful, where she and her husband had lived for the past 15 years. Funeral services will be held at 10:30 a.m. Saturday, Feb. 13, at the Mueller Park Stake Center, 1800 E. Mueller Park Road, Bountiful. Interment will be in the Preston, Idaho, cemetery.

She was born in Preston on June 27, 1924, one of seven children of Hazel Smith and Parley Leonidas Carver. While attending the University of Idaho Southern Branch (later to become Idaho State University) in Pocatello, she met Amos Jordan, whom she followed to the U.S. Military Academy at West Point, where they were married on June 5, 1946.

The Jordans spent many years at West Point, where "Joe" Jordan was on the faculty for two decades, eventually serving as chair of the department of social science.

"She took a raft of cadets from Idaho and Utah under her wing," David Jordan said. "She also had to do a great deal of professional entertaining."

Over the years, Joe Jordan, who earned the rank of brigadier general in the Army, served as deputy undersecretary in both the U.S. Department of Defense and Department of State with many foreign assignments.

David Jordan said his mother "was just the ultimate supportive wife who made my father successful in all his work. My father always thought of her as the co-author of his life."

During two missions for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, the Jordans were responsible for church humanitarian services in east and south Asia.

"My mother was handing out rice in Bangladesh when the floods were there in 1998," David Jordan said. "She always put the needs of others for whom she had responsibility ahead of her own."

The Jordans are the parents of six children, Peggy Hughes of Provo; Diana Paxton and David Jordan, both of Bountiful; Keith Jordan of Franklin, Tenn.; Linda Mabey of Farmington; and Kent Jordan of Wilmington, Del.; 24 grandchildren and 10 great-grandchildren.

MARDEANE JORDAN

MarDeane (Polly) Carver Jordan 1924 ~ 2010 MarDeane (Polly) Carver Jordan passed away peacefully, holding the hand of her husband of 63 years, on February 9, 2010.She was born June 27, 1924 in Preston, Idaho to Hazel Smith and Parley Leonidas Carver. She was one of seven children. Polly met the love of her life, Amos (Joe) Jordan at the University of Idaho, Southern Branch, and followed him to the US Military Academy at West Point where they were married on June 5, 1946. They were sealed shortly after in the Idaho Falls Temple. Polly and Joe had a lifelong love affair. They lived and travelled around the world, making homes and friends in England, India, Hawaii, New York, Washington DC, Aspen, CO, and military posts throughout the country, finally settling in Bountiful, Utah where they have resided for the past 15 years. Polly's world revolved around her family. Popcorn balls, gingerbread houses, family reunions in Jackson Hole, black licorice, Sunday tapioca pudding, a love of books, music, and dancing, long walks, and homemade Halloween costumes are memories we will always cherish. Polly loved the Savior and serving in the Church. She was a Relief Society president, Young Women leader and tireless primary worker. She was the last one to leave the ward house after cleaning up following an activity. Polly and Joe served two missions together in Hong Kong and Hawaii. She left a legacy of faith for her children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren. Polly is survived by her husband, brother Con Carver, and her six children Peggy Hughes (John), Provo; Diana Paxton (Dan), Bountiful; Keith (Judy), Franklin, TN; David (Holly), Bountiful; Linda Mabey (Dan), Farmington; Kent ( Michelle), Wilmington, DE and 24 grandchildren, 10 great-grandchildren, and two on the way. Funeral services will be held Saturday, February 13, at 10:30 a.m. at the Mueller Park Stake Center, 1800 East Mueller Park Road, Bountiful. Interment will be in the Preston, Idaho cemetery. In lieu of flowers, please make contributions to the LDS Perpetual Education Fund.

Bitter Sweet

Last night my Grandmother passed away peacefully holding her husbands hand. We had a unique opportunity to gather together last night before she passed and have a family prayer. It was a very spiritual experience. and as death of a loved one always is Bitter Sweet. I have spent alot of time this week and espessialy the last few days thinking about my grandmother. All the memories I have with her are priceless. It was fun to talk with cousins and here there memories of her and how a lot were the same but some of them were ones I had not even remembered until they were talked about. We are all going to miss her but know that she is on the other side of the veil with her mother and her father and her sisters and maybe my babies too. Maybe it is foolish but I sort of hope that she will be there to shu those little ones on down to me. I love her so much and although it is a great loss to us, I know that it is s0 much better for her and that our seperation from her will only seem but just a moment. Thank you for all your prayers on behalf of my family. Her Legasy of faith lives on in us.

Christmas Fun and Tender Mercies

Okay so I am typing this on my In Laws computer. Listening to the laughter and the talking and the playing and grumping and I'm Loving it! What a wonderful time of year this is. A time for reflecting on the wonderful gift that we have all been given the Birth of our Savior. A birth that took place in the most meager and lowly of circumstances. Everything about the savior was humble from his birth to his death and I feel so greatful that he did. As I was driving to bountiful this morning to look after my grandmother it was foggy. I could barely see anything in front of me and then out of no where this light cut through the fog and as I looked up to see what it was. I Saw a Star! It was from a Video Marquee of the 2600 South exit but I thought it was so amazing I felt so impressed that this same star guided the wise men who traveled far and long to see him. I felt such gratitude for that star that was a constant for the months that they traveled to praise and worship him. What A tender Mercy.

Quick Update

For those of you who follow my blog and not my facebook I have lost another 5 Pounds this week so thats a total of 18 POUNDS!!!! Can you tell Im Excited???!!!!

Slacking

Im so sorry my friends for not blogging for so long I have been busy with the new job and trying not to think about food! LOL. It has been a crazy 3 weeks I have been on this great new diet called Medifast Fit for Life. It is AMAIZING!! I absolutly love it I have lost 13 pounds so far and tomorow marks another week so we will see how much I add to tally. Hopefully its a loss instead of a gain but i guess you never know ;) I actualy wanted to share with you some things that I have learned from this new life stile I am living. 1st and very most Important I AM STRONG! I have learned that I am stronger then food. What use to be an addiction is becoming something way more manageable. Dont get me wrong I have cravings for sure but I dont have to give into them. There is so much power in saying no when yes is the easy answer. There is so much power in thinking it thru instead of the tastes good now feel sorry later philosiphy. And there is so much power in knowing that if I can over come a food adiction that has plagued me for years there is no reason why I cant overcome anything else in my life. Lesson # 2 KNOWING THAT I AM MAKING A DIFFERENCE IN NOT JUST MY LIFE BUT THE LIFE OF MY HUSBAND AND MY CHILDREN! How sad would I be if I couldnt chase after my kids when they wanted to play? what kind of example of healthy eating would I set for them if I ate poorly and expected them to eat different? What kind of wife am I when I cant go on a hike or a walk or take the stairs or do any kind of physical activity with my husband? What am I missing out on by keeping on the weight? Is Mac and Cheese honestly worth loosing all that. and Harsh reality # 3 what kind of Wife and Mother would I be if I died of heart diseese at the age of 50 and left my children and my husband alone! Mac and Cheese and Mashed Potatoes definatly dont seem worth it! I am loving being healthy I am loving not being sick after I eat and I love the Idea of being around with all the people I love! Lesson # 3 I DONT HAVE TO EMOTIONALY EAT! Have you ever noticed how much of our socioty revolves around food?! Its really quite rediculous actualy. It reminds me of the scene in over the hedge where Rj is talking to the others about human food and how the humans lives revolve around it. What I am learning to do is find other things to do other then eating for emotinal reasons. I dont have to cut myself off from the world just because I want to eat better. Im just being smarter about the foods that I eat. Instead of mashed potatoes I have califlower instead of gravy I use seasonings I watch my portion size. I really dont feel any more or less left out of the fun or the conversation because someone is eating more or startchier foods then me. Im learning to eat to live not live to eat. I feel great about my progress and I feel great that people notice it. I hope that I will have the streangth to continue on until I reach my goal! Thank you for all your love and support! Much Love !!!!!!!